Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Finding Balance?

I've really been struggling with balance in my life lately. I find that I can totally fritter an entire day away being absolutely lazy - games on the computer, TV shows, etc. I've been feeling really convicted about that for quite a while. I know that leisure time is an idol for me and I can let my games petty entertainments totally eclipse God right out of the picture.

But the last two days have been the opposite. I've had two extremely busy days, running between errands with hardly any time to breathe. Well, I can breathe, but I quite literally have not eaten well the last two days because I had no time. This is certainly not laziness, but my attitude on these days has not been great. I get to feeling really put out that I can't catch a break between the phone calls and demands on my time. I forget in those days that God is orchestrating my life, that He never promised me comfort all the time and that my attitude is just as important as my actions.

How do I find a balance? How do I fit in harmless entertainment and avoid slothfulness? How do I fulfill my responsibilities with a good attitude? I seem to feel guilty for something that I'm doing or not doing much of the time...

I don't necessarily need answers or suggestions for these questions. I know they are just the perpetual struggles of life. I know that one of the key factors is prioritized time spent reading God's word and praying. But this is how I've been feeling lately.

15 comments:

Rachel said...

I know how you feel. I have difficulty with balancing my time too. The computer seems to be especially tempting, and I can waste hours on it if I'm not careful. I still spend time in God's word daily and our small group is a big encouragement, but sometimes I feel like I've jipped my family out of my time because I was playing games on the computer or something. Getting rid of facebook has helped me.

Ruth said...

I just posted a similar post. Praying for balance for both you and Rachel and I!!

Heather said...

Balance is so hard. I have been trying to not spend so much time on the computer lately and I don't miss it.

kristina said...

I get in a cycle where I feel guilty about reading or drawing because I should be working on my job search or portfolio. So I don't read and draw but am overwhelmed by the work I think I should be doing so I say heck with it all and watch tv. I am trying to turn that pattern around.

As far as spending too much time on the computer- I work pretty much alone, and I live alone. I am very thankful for all of my Christian blogger friends. You have been such a blessing to me.

Kim S said...

Balance would be a dinner get together. We would love to see you both! The Saturday works for us. I think you can respond to this by email. :)

Kim S said...

Hah, I am such a novice. Instead of somehow giving you my email without giving it to the world, I have now subscribed to all of the comments on your blog. Hmmm . . . I do like reading your blog, but I think I will unsubscribe to all of your comments! Have a great day!

Martha said...

Balance comes only with constant effort. In my mind's eye I see one of the Wallenda's stopping midway across the tightrope wire and regaining his composure. I am constantly battered by the winds of change and having to rearrange my priorities in order to keep everything balanced. I'm finding its a lifelong battle. Hopefully I am learning along the way and falling more in step with God's will for my life.

kristina said...

Sometimes I leave this blog open in a separate tab just because I like to listen to the music.

joeks said...

Balance--one of life's challenges. There is always something and/or someone competing for our time.

Kristina, that's what I do all the time too!

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Priscilla said...

Good music by the way. Enjoying it.

Balance...oh yes. I know what you mean and have also been convicted. It is tough to attain.

Ruth said...

Have you had any balance finding inspiration since you posted this?? If yes, then any tips to share???!!

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